It's been a while since I last wrote anything here. Truth is, work has been keeping me quite busy lately, and I've actually been seeing the girl I wrote about last time. Dating, in itself, has always been rather easy for me. I'm good at talking to women, and they usually respond excessively well. My problem there was just in confidence, and not escalating and the like - but that was a pretty easy hurdle to jump. I've got her really in to me. There's just one problem...
She's JUST LIKE the old me! Not as shy, but overly accomadating, too insecure to show confidence, etc. I've yet to evoke any emotion out of her at all, except whatever emotion you 'show' during sex. This has really brought me to a good point as far as becoming more confident in myself, though. I'm starting to have fun NOT being agreeable. I'm purposely pushing buttons that I know my ex would've fought me over, or any girl would fight me over, to see how far I can go. And I'm enjoying it.
Start to ENJOY a little tension. Enjoy not going along with whatever it is that she says. I fully realize that this may not be the best of experiences, because I do think I can get away with more with her than I would most other women - but that's okay. The point is to have that experience. You feel so much better about yourself after you've stood up for something, even if it's little. I don't know about you, but I've backed down an awful lot, backpedalled like there's no tomorrow, to get out of trouble with a girl; and it doesn't feel good at all. This does.
Just know where the 'too far' line is.
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